I Heart Terengganu

Even it's like about more than 3 weeks i'm at INTEC I still feel like everyone's here is quite strange to me...and they intrigue me as well.It's not that I hate to see their big insecurities when they add more egoism in their manner.

I understand that it was like a self-defense mechanism to a normal human when they feel that they are insulted...like...when someone else say something that make themselves look foolish and full of ignorance...but that's just words...

Why making a big cover-up for other's insensitive saying? This kind of matter always end up in my sight easily at this place...which is contrary to my place...At the east side of this country...especially Terengganu,(I'm not kidding-true story) people tend to just go easy with their pal and try to please them,not only their own emotion...that is by not having the old self-complimenting talk...Today, another big duck with his own 'good history' bark about his previous experience(which I bet has been told about 1000 times already) to us, the young lads and girls.

In this kind of matter(s**t),I usually suffer from an irritating plus bored-to-death sleepy syndrome.So in any case I still love my friendly hometown.

An Inconvenient Lie

Now all the thing's done I can finally breath again...no more documents-organizing..

But ughh the cash does'nt reel in yet!

Had my first biochem quizzy and I'm pretty sure it was an awful lot of stress to make myself believe that i'm doing some good job there(yeah,I was cheating myself again..huuh)

The great thing is I don't see how that matters...Sometimes I hate to do it but I always do it though.I mean, it's okay to cheat yourself right?

Lie is always within me...whether it's... when I'm thinking that I'm lying on my bed staring out the window watching cloud moving peacefully but in reality I'm talking to an annoyingly dull person or just in class get bored with the the teachers..or..when I see problems I just see it as a game....either way,i'm having fun doing them

But this...(my financy grow poorer as my day goes by) isn't something I can lie to myself without tearing myself apart...admit it,Zubair.You just won yourself a big prize in Who Wants To Be A Pennyless-aire.

Waiting To Exhale

Days at INTEC still doesn't shine so bright...at least for me.From the second i first step my foot in this college I knew my life won't be the same anymore.With all the group of 'smart' students gathered here i can always sense the same activity they've been doing without them realized it by themselves...that is...trying to show others what they're capable of.Good God! I always think that trying to be acknowledged by others was a pretty irritating job to do and can just come handy in business...particularly my career.Or..maybe i'm in the wrong position to critisize one's hardwork.I'm such a lousy person when it comes to be a nice and volunteering man.I mean it's not that i hate to help people voluntarily but i just think the best person should do it(the expert of a that certain area)

Today was another excrutiating day to me... too painful to admit it...Well, maybe i doesn't go so bad after all...My stomach is in real agony this morning..I knew it was the bread's demonic work.If only I didn't take my breakfast.I still think my belly would confront the hunger itself.4 hours of empty tank without me fueling it wasn't that long..Plus I got this english discussion to present.My 'lucky' day started to embrace me more.My group was the first to present in front of the class.Trust me Miss, a proper preparation should be enough for me to shoot the presentation right to the class but I regretted I didn't have much of it.She must knew that I was completely clueless about what I'm saying.Seriously, the stomach thingy was all that i can decently think of at that time.

Another thing that bug me is about the documents of the sponsorship that needs to be settled immediately.I mean no rush about them but the money issue is really sicken me enough.Foods,drinks and now books are all but cheap stuff this day.So in any way necessary i need to get my allowances right now.No time in pouring all my money into stuff without them be claimed back isn't it?As soon as this paperwork is done i will have my chance to catch a new breath again.